MIA

Good Morning Blogland!

I bet most of you have noticed that I went MIA-life has gotten crazy lately and I just didn't want to be negative nancy everytime I wrote, so I decided not to write at all.

What has been up in the world of Rachel might you ask? I feel as if this is a mountain that I will never see the top of. I had a crazy few weeks with trying to finish school up, started working full-time, trying to squeeze in time with my infusions and still stay on top of my treatments.

I would be lying if I said I have been completely compliant with my treatments. Actually, too be quite honest, I am not even sure how often I am doing my nebs anymore. I know,I know.Time isn't an excuse. I really entered a  mild state of depression for a little while. My pre-screen for transplant came out with negative results, and I have just had a tough time finding a silver lining. You see, in my mind my life is all wrong. I will be 21 in October, and here I am still living at home, barely graduated with college with an associates, and going to the hospital every week. I thought for sure that this will be the rest of my life-sitting in front of a computer doing research and writing blogs for the rest of my life with no hope for a future.

But today,I am writing on a positive note. I have spent the past few weeks reflecting on my life and trying to decide on where I will go from here. I have spent some great few days with my boyfriend and realized I am the most loved girl in the world. I finally have found a chance to partially live on my own and live with my boyfriend and that makes me happier than anything in the world. And my work has finally offered me some awesome health insurance which will make my life a lot easier.

So at the end of the day,you just have to look at the little things and appreciate them.

Payday Fun Day

I don't have much to say today. But I wanted to post at least a little something so that my followers didn't think that I've fallen off the face of the earth. Lately, life has been one hectic mess. I've been working 60+ hours a week, going to school, and still doing my infusions. The infusions are getting tougher and tougher as time goes on. Last week, I felt absolutely terrible until about friday-only to have to go back for another one on Monday. This week, I hadn't even eaten. I didn't even think about food. I know it'll get better eventually, but I also know that things typically have to get harder before it gets better. The highlight of this week would certainly be the fact that I got paid on Friday, which means I finally get to restock all the things I need! So I figured I would share to my viewers some of my purchases and expenses.


Firstly, I get all of my prescriptions filled at Rite-Aid. I have a flex-choice plan through my insurance which means I can ultimately get them filled anywhere I want, but depending on where I get them filled, it will cost more. I started getting them filled there about a year ago when I got into couponing. Rite-Aid has a wellness program where you earn points on prescriptions and purchases. After 1,000 points you receive 20% off all regular priced items in the store(excluding prescriptions). Oh,and did I mention that each prescription banks you 25 points? Yeah,that's why I go there. It's already March and I have over 500 points which means I'm halfway to earning 20% off for the year of 2014-I already earned 2013's 20% last year.

Yay for packages! Ok, so this isn't all of it-but just some of the things that I've been slacking. I order my things from an assortment of places-depending on where's cheapest. I can't afford to lose money on silly things on a starbucks pay budget.

1-I have been using Pari Plus LC nebulizer cups for the past year for my inhaled albuterol and hypertonic saline. I also have a nebulizer at both my house and my boyfriend's-it keeps me from having to carry it around with me. So with that being said, Vitality Medical was having a great sale on these cups this week! I normally on buy a set of 2 at a time at about $14.95 each, but Vitality had them on sale for 10.85. So I snatched up four and now I have a few extra.

2- It has finally become time to get a new glucose meter. My doctor recommended the Bayer Breeze 2(picture below). It has this nifty little disk that holds 10 strips at a time, so I only have to worry about changing a disk every 5 days. This is nice since I'm always on the go. The only thing that I didn't like was the lancets seemed to be more expensive than most...but after I received the meter, I quickly realized that the lancing device will hold the cheap walmart lancets-I think I paid about $4 bucks for a box of 100,and they're pretty colors which is also a bonus. Yay for saving money!

I also have this case from walmart-it was about 5 dollars I believe. It is so much cuter than the average black pouch that meters come with. If you haven't guessed already, I am all about adding personality to my medical equipment.After all, I am the one who has to deal with it all.

3-This isn't quite a big expense, but something else I mail-order in bulk are alcohol pads, gloves, and tissues. I can get a much cheaper deal online than anywhere in stores.

4-I decided to go get a BJ's membership(I'll make a post about that later) and picked up a case of 24 Boost High Protein for 24 dollars. This is a great savings! Walmart had the original boost's on sale for $9.99 for a 6  pack. That let me save about .66 a piece.

As you can see, it's not much of a payday fun day. However, I am grateful everyday that I am at least able to afford everything that I need to try to stay as healthy as I can.

Positive thoughts to start the week

I keep my blog so that I can really inform people about the good,the bad, and the ugly about Cystic Fibrosis. To me, my blog is about letting people into my life to see it's not always rainbows and butterflies. But I've noticed that the more that I post, the more I really don't post anything positive at all on my blog, or anything too much more than stuff that's Cystic Fibrosis related. So as I read other Cyster and Fibro's blogs-one particularly caught my eye. It's a woman named Colleen over at *Live*Laugh*Love*Breathe. She has a feature on her blog called Positive Thoughts Thursday.Every Thursday she takes the time to point out the positive things in her life-whether it's health related, family, love,work, or whatever. It really inspired me as a new blogger to really focus on taking some time to show people the positive in my life too. Of course my life is a roller coaster ride due to CF, but as you can see in my about me-I consider my life a beautiful disaster. Her posts really opened my eyes that I need to share the good too, and to show people that CF doesn't control my whole entire life. So with that being said, if I ever feel as if my blog is just being a depressing place to be or needs a little cheering up, I'm going to share a few things in my life that are going right in my life!

• This week(February 15th actually), I get to celebrate being with my amazing boyfriend for 4 years. It has been an awesome 4 years and I can't believe that I have had the privilege of spending it with someone so special. 
• With all of my health issues going on, I am still attending school full-time. This is my last semester and this is the first time that I have absolutely loved all of my classes. The people in the classes can be a little nutty, but the classes are really great.
• I am so glad that I have such a great GI team at Johns Hopkins. Through this whole process they have been extremely punctual and helpful. Within the 2 weeks that they have gotten involved we have already had an appointment with them, labs done, CTS and ultrasounds done, and my colonoscopy is scheduled.